today officially marks the last day of work at OVA. am somewhat relieved, yet i feel as if there will be something missing from tomorrow onwards. gone are the days of freedom, idle surfing and chats on MSN whole day long, in place will be hours of bumming around at home. what am i gonna do everyday besides tuition? its the very same feeling as that of having ORD-ed with months ahead without a concrete plan/schedule; feels so aimless. I'm such a drifter in life now.

actually, im well aware that there's a lot to be done ,eg revision of A level physics, mathematics and chemistry as well as french. i can also practise the violin again after months of letting it collect dust; read all the good fiction books, exercise, watch all the dvds and tv programs i want, go out and have fun... etc. but somehow i dun really feel like it, just dun have any mood to do anything. i shall try to work up myself into a more enthusiastic person who feels the zest of life. yeah rite... something tells me that im gonna be a very restless retiree in 50 years' time.