you know, they say at times u need to slow down in life to smell the roses. for me, i think mine's so excruciatingly slow-moving i could get hay fever. if only life could be like a huge fire-truck careening down the street. all i do is study/doodle/surf the net/eat/sleep/go out on wkends, and that isn't exciting enough for me. i crave for something more. i hate the routine, and i hate the fact that while pining away for change, im actually beleaguered by worries over my final exams in april. they cost a whopping 1k + euros (at which i nearly passed out while doing the application), before i realised that i'm a boursier du gouvernement français (french govt scholar), which cuts down the cost considerably. anw, ive just submitted the application and im worried sick just by looking at the timetable. this is the first time (and i certainly hope the last) i'll be sitting for so many goddamn papers.
23rd-25th apr: 1st set
28th-30th apr, 2nd may: 2nd set
5th-7th, 9th may:3rd set
16th,17th,19-20th may:4th set
and thats just the written part. the orals will constitute part deux, tragically of the same cosmic duration. and ive so many 2 4-hr papers on a single day. argh, i so hope id have the energy to last thru these 8-hr exams days.
i just had an epiphany 2 wkends ago in a bar while having a heart-to-heart talk with M**a. to go through the rough and tumble, to get emotionally calloused, just so as to sit back in years to come in a suffused glow that would make of it seem worthwhile. this is surely something i can do. i certainly hope i wouldnt find myself in gray chill instead. *shudders* anyhow, theres no denying that the odds are highly against me. sigh.
on a more upbeat note, i had a blast in NY during xmas-NY day!! the food, the sights, the buzzing electricity in the air, the excitement, and most importantly, the shopping! OH MY GAWD racks and rows of designer wear at non-designer prices. i nearly passed out at that as well haha. and e mad laughter!! i was back to my spastic cranky self and had the crazy giggles whole day long, esp in ju's coy lol. i camwhored like there's no tomorrow and i must say, frittered far too much far too liberally. but owell, it all made for good fun. i need to put up pics, which is an immensely troublesome task. but first i need to get those from the others. oh bother.
shorn - Wednesday, January 16, 2008 -
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Raunchy!!! I like!! haha :)
