argh im so freaking pissed with my spastic msn. its annoying the hell out of me with its constant self-disconnection. worse still, i cant figure out what the friggin prob is. i think i must have re-installed several versions at least 5 times, and yet e prob persists. and im irritated coz its past midnite and im soo sleepy from studying, but still, i have to persevere as i wanna go out tmr evening. after all, labour day is meant for poor overworked souls like us to have a gd break isnt it? theres no way im gonna stay at home the whole day, id prob melt from e heat. mother nature has decided to skip spring in paris, and has sprung summer 1 month early upon the hapless city. OMG. e heat is unbearable at times, and i totally hate lab periods now as 4 hrs in some stuffy lab really makes my labcoat stink even more than it already does. and besides, it feels weird to just go out in tees and jeans without having to bring a jacket along; not to mention tt its a waste not being able to wear those thin jackets for autumn/spring.

more grouses about early summer. i wake up in the morning at 5 plus now coz e sun is already up by then and i have to shield my eyes like some cuckoo vampire, and my heart always skips a beat becoz i wld think that ive overslept, only to groan upon looking at my clock and then go back to sleep. i shldnt have spoilt my blinds last year. i rem i came back from clubbing at around 5 am, showered and then went online before gg to bed at about 6-7. was trying to sleep but the sun shone so brightly i got fed up and yanked the blinds string so hard it snapped. real smart of me. so here i am, 1 yr on and still suffering the aftermath of groggy impatience. right now, am trying to be as alert as possible with e pile of notes beside me, but a voice at e back of my head keeps tempting me to go search for food. and so ive finished my choco meringues in just 2 days. holy shit, im always so fungry these days.. as for my work, i guess id get back to it later, or i'll wake up early tmr to continue.

seems like the studying never stops. 23/4,30/4,5/5,10/5,11/5,14/5,2/6,4/6, so many freaking exams, and still there are 4 more to fit into those available dates. ARGH.. and on top of that there are still assignments and a particular 2-yr long mega project that requires soo much effort. sickening is the word. and in not-so-recent news, 2 of my classmates have quitted school. they cant take it any longer. pretty dumb if u ask me, considering that they've already weathered thru 90% of the 1st year. if they had continued, they cld have gotten a direct transfer into 2nd yr of university. but apparently they got sooo sick of it they just decided to stop. well, gd luck to them then. it only means one thing now: less competitors. gosh i hate the feeling of such stiff competition, but its here to stay, and its tacitly lurking around and making some ppl selfish. boo to them.

i really feel like slapping my prof. e paper today could have turned out significantly better had he kept his word and tested us on thermodynamics. i studied so hard for it, and was really confident. but no, he had to test us on fluid dynamics that i didnt revise for, and as e 3-hr paper had 3 qns, i spent abt a gd one hr raking my brains and only succeeded in coming up with scraps of meaningless fluff. thank god im about to reach the half-way mark. just 2 more months and id be back in spore. this yr is def e most challenging ever, academically speaking of coz. and i think next yr wld be far worse. * shudders* shall take care of it when e time comes.

and yes, my denmark trip. i enjoyed myself so much and had lotsa fun, all thanks to e stellar company of erik and his grp of frenz. copenhagen as a whole is nice, but a lil' sterile, esp when compared to paris nad london where its really more happening. did many 'firsts' there as well. i went swimming, and dived for the first time ever. the virginal plunge still went pretty ok, as i emulated the actions of the others, and entered the water rather 'streamlined-ly'. haha so proud of myself. on hindsight, its total beginners' luck im telling u. i got emboldened with each dive and went on to dive from e highest board, e hard one that u cldnt bounce on before diving off. its the one where mr bean became mr jelly and clinged onto the handle-bar like anything. anyway, that was alright still, tho it was slightly painful as i didnt enter the water cleanly enough. but the ultimate was the very last dive, from the medium-height board. now, there was this grp of children who was beside the diving pool, listening to their instructor teach. i was vaguely aware of their presence but it was only after my final dive that i cringed so hard from daring to dive in their presence. see, i was bouncing merrily on that medium-height board and jumped off on the wrong 'rhythm', and so i made the most 'spectacular' dive ever tat those lucky danish ppl had the fortune to see/hear. i think i must have entered the water at 70 degrees to the normal, and in the split-second when i was air-borne, i knew that all was gone. with a mighty splash and a muffled 'OWW!!', i created such a thunderous, and obviously painful splash that erik and a few ppl came rushing over to the other end of e pool where i was about to surface to enquire if i was ok. my chest was bright red after that, and erik told me many of the children winced in pain upon seeing my dazzling dive. i nearly died from shame then. and to make things worse, that stupid coach of theirs kept using his hands to do the 'PIIAAKKK' action to represent my big splash when i walked in his direction. damn it. after i had showered, i was on the way out when i saw those little children in action. i think the oldest must be around 7-yr old or smth, but the way they dove just had me standing there for about 5 mins, watching in pure fascination. imagine 5/6-yr olds walking up confidently to the edge of the board, raising their arms up high, springing a few times on the board before leaping off and executing a few flips and somersaults before diving cleanly into the water. i was soooo impressed. TILL, i caught their instructor's eye. he did the PIIAAKKK action again, and off i went. GRRHH.

ok, blogging is not only cathartic and therapeutic, its able to induce magical caffeine in my system as well. on to my revision. ciao.